Hey everyone, Aleksei 'Arion' Dolohov or Charles 'Dealer' Lupin here, so ummm, I'm not really good at saying goodbye or talking to people in general, and I never even made an introduction to myself, not even sure if its necessarily a goodbye since I can return, but I will try my best...
Maybe let's start by saying it's been great 3 (almost 4) years playing with you guys, I have had some truly amazing experiences on this server and I won't be a liar if I tell you that even though it has some issues, it's one of the best roleplaying communities/mental asylums I have been a part of and there are a lot of things I would like to talk about, but I am already known for yapping a lot, so I will TRY to keep it short.
I mainly do this post, even though I am not really a "people person", because I think most of you deserve at least a thank you from all my heart and a bit of an explanation on why I am leaving, while I may not be a well-known member or anything like that and I rather tried to keep myself away from large public, I did apparently come to be known as "The MC&D main" and stuff like this with some people comparing me to "Closest thing MC&D has to a leader on UK" and I did manage to leave my own little print on this RP world, let me tell you right now to clear up some misconseption, I never wanted to be a leader of anything, hence I stayed away from leadership or higher rank roles for most of the time, never thought I was suited for it, I simply wanted my favorite anomalous group from SCP universe that can be described here as..."left out" to say the least, to be using its full potential since even with MC&D at start not having much, I managed to have a lot of fun and RP with it and since there were no other "volunteers" or the ones that were rather gave up or failed, I started to take the matter into my own hands, and it came out as it came out... but I am getting off track again...
It has honestly been one helluva journey. There were amazing moments, good moments and even some sad and horrible moments. Overall, a pretty balanced trip 10/10.
While I never imagined myself and never had the opinion of being the most stable person, for the past year due to my IRL issues, my mental health and overall state came to a really hard decline. I was usually one of the people who would rather ignore their problems and keep going hoping for the best. I often used roleplay and some... to keep it family-friendly... addictive substances as a way to escape reality and, to be honest, just be someone else. But over the years it has finally caught up with me, leaving me and my ADHD with a lot of issues like depression and panic attacks, lack of self-motivation, among others, so with a sudden realization and good advice from some people on the server, I finally decided to take care of myself and for once put myself in the first place over others, while I would love to continue playing on CN during my recovery, I quickly realized during last month as I tried, it won't be really helping that much and my current state can leave more problems than it can solve, reason why I am saying all this is because I realize that current times are really hard for most of us and all of us are facing their own demons in one way or another and if you ever felt the same way or even worse... please do not forget YOU ARE NOT ALONE and there is always hope and room for us to make our lifes how we would want them to be and don't be afraid to seek out help! not every fight can be won alone... I once again want to thank all the great people of CN! with of course some honorable mentions going to (In no particular order) :
@Beer — my man, my bro, there is not much to tell you that I already did not tell you in person but ,while you are a ragebaiter, you are still one of the kindest and most understanding people I met on this server. Thank you for all the support you gave me on MC&D and helping me realize what I actually need, hope you bring MC&D to glory and its true potential while im gone...
@Johnson J. Marauder — How long are we here again? Feel like we should have beards at this point (With yours being longer), honestly I am not sure how many deals and interactions I would even have with CI in general if not for you. If there is anyone deserving a status of a legend on CN it is you (but you probably already know that), always been a CI and I hope always will be a CI, God(Drug)speed to you and please focus less on your K/D.
@Bananolas — Ah, my chemical client number 1 and one of the main reasons why I became rich so I can pay for MC&D, at least back in the day, while there may have been some ups and downs between us I still can do nothing else but to wish you luck and prosperity.
@YandereMuffin — For me you are Blep and always will be. While our interactions were sometimes... weird.... to say the least I still cannot thank you enough for all the help you given me by either pac creation,event making or being a chad in general, I hope that you will not give up on MC&D...
@LuxPT — Not sure what happened to you but honestly, you were one of the most kind and jolly people on UK and I always could not help myself but to smile every time I spoke with you.
@Kayla — Oh boy, let me just say right now "this corporation would be nothing without you" and I think whole medical department too, wish we had some more interactions between us but my character could not take being kidnapped again for a whole month by A-1 for feeling nice and saving you from CI that time hah, also women are scary.
@Niox - Happy bir... Never mind, I can already hear you screaming all the way over there even though I was never in on the joke too much. Wish you as much patience with them peoples as possible.
@Vetkoek — You will always be the best butler MC&D ever had. Oh yeah and you were a chad chief too hah, its thanks to you that I have finally decided to move to a cl4 role and honestly, I don't regret anything.
@AstroHyena — While your "mhm" or "ok" sometimes infuriates the shit out of me, I still think you are very cool and there are good reasons for why you are where you are. Keep it strong!
@Charles "Ze" Whitmee — Don't worry, you will still see my MC&D character appearing like a ghost in random places so you can let out the biggest sigh ever, if not on CN then in your house hah, you are for sure in the top of most coolest people here, keep it cool!
@Dimitri 'Pixie' Yung — Do I even have to say anything? One of the nicest people you could talk with, even if hes talking to you as an interrogator cause you just broke FLC, keep it positive champ!
@Ronin — Cheesy is that you? Anyway, I don't think I can find words good enough to thank you for all you did for me and MC&D in general, some of the coolest ideas executed in a coolest way possible, my hopes are that you will be here for CN and that you will keep bringing them entertainment that they deserve.
@Frederick - Viva la France! Even though I sometimes could not understand you because of your perfect accent, I still think you are definitely on the list of the best people I could talk to and share my opinions with.
@Archangel - You will have to find someone ealse to argue with over the compound gate I'm afraid, but I think your nickname is spot on and deserved. If not Foundation, then Nu-7 should be grateful for having you.
@Zen - I don't think I have ever seen a more active person here, even if some of your ideas are denied, I still think you contributed A LOT to the people of this place, even if some of them don't recognize it, keep it creative!
@Buddy'Bud'B. (temporary) — "As long as we are here, GSD is going to be." I hope you the best and wish a lot of patience. Maybe one day they will get those shields changed. Until then GSD have you for their shield.
@Marrio Tazuul — If there is any GSD I can identify myself with the most, it will be you. Thanks for being understanding and kind, you will always have a special place in my heart.
@Raali - Kenraali is that you? Anyway, FINALLY AN SA LAUGHING AT MY JOKES WITHOUT SENDING ME TO THERAPY! Thank you for being here and breaking stereotypes. Keep at it champ!
@Snake — Made me lose my shit more than once, but still, nothing but respect and appreciation for all the work you are doing. I never congratulated you enough on climbing the ranks and I hope you keep doing soo, this place wouldn't be the same without you. Keep it SsSsssSstrong!
@Dennid - I still see you as that starting DEA coming here because of Germanpotato hah, While we never had many interactions I heard more than enough to thank you for the work you have been doing, and you did!
@Jack "Golden" Apple — My fellow CPT, I hope you will bring as much joy to Gensec as you did to me, and hold on strong there! D BLOCK WILL HOLD!
There is a lot of other people that I would like to mention that have unfortunately already left the community like Sven,Abraham and many others, but to honor their peace I won't be doing pings and such. thank you again.
(People I could not find the tags for or could not figure out which one it is but still deserve a mention - Pennington,Unethical,McTavish,Warmug,Mayer,Matt Morgan,Qidn,Welper,Dam Dam,Titan,Sanders,Achurm,Amy,Leviathan,Aki,Ella,Saint,Auburn,Neptune,William and MANY others)
My memory is not what its used to be, and I never really had a good head for names, being honest also having a hard time finding all of you here and I'm thinking I have already written long enough of a list, but you can be sure to include yourself here if you brought any positive experience for me and other players in this community that includes all the Mods,Devs,SAs,SCs,GOCs,CIs,MTFs etc and of course my favorite MC&Ds! Once again thank you all for providing one of the best SCP experiences you could get and I wish you all the best I can. I am honestly not sure for how long I will be gone. Maybe months, maybe years, maybe I will not return at all, or I will just come visit you once in a while to check how my favorite mental asylum is doing. All depends on how my recovery journey will go and how the "new Arion" will look after it, but I do hope I can return as a better and more stable version of myself if I even succeed.
Wish you all well! Arion out.
Goodbye card
Maybe let's start by saying it's been great 3 (almost 4) years playing with you guys, I have had some truly amazing experiences on this server and I won't be a liar if I tell you that even though it has some issues, it's one of the best roleplaying communities/mental asylums I have been a part of and there are a lot of things I would like to talk about, but I am already known for yapping a lot, so I will TRY to keep it short.
I mainly do this post, even though I am not really a "people person", because I think most of you deserve at least a thank you from all my heart and a bit of an explanation on why I am leaving, while I may not be a well-known member or anything like that and I rather tried to keep myself away from large public, I did apparently come to be known as "The MC&D main" and stuff like this with some people comparing me to "Closest thing MC&D has to a leader on UK" and I did manage to leave my own little print on this RP world, let me tell you right now to clear up some misconseption, I never wanted to be a leader of anything, hence I stayed away from leadership or higher rank roles for most of the time, never thought I was suited for it, I simply wanted my favorite anomalous group from SCP universe that can be described here as..."left out" to say the least, to be using its full potential since even with MC&D at start not having much, I managed to have a lot of fun and RP with it and since there were no other "volunteers" or the ones that were rather gave up or failed, I started to take the matter into my own hands, and it came out as it came out... but I am getting off track again...
It has honestly been one helluva journey. There were amazing moments, good moments and even some sad and horrible moments. Overall, a pretty balanced trip 10/10.
While I never imagined myself and never had the opinion of being the most stable person, for the past year due to my IRL issues, my mental health and overall state came to a really hard decline. I was usually one of the people who would rather ignore their problems and keep going hoping for the best. I often used roleplay and some... to keep it family-friendly... addictive substances as a way to escape reality and, to be honest, just be someone else. But over the years it has finally caught up with me, leaving me and my ADHD with a lot of issues like depression and panic attacks, lack of self-motivation, among others, so with a sudden realization and good advice from some people on the server, I finally decided to take care of myself and for once put myself in the first place over others, while I would love to continue playing on CN during my recovery, I quickly realized during last month as I tried, it won't be really helping that much and my current state can leave more problems than it can solve, reason why I am saying all this is because I realize that current times are really hard for most of us and all of us are facing their own demons in one way or another and if you ever felt the same way or even worse... please do not forget YOU ARE NOT ALONE and there is always hope and room for us to make our lifes how we would want them to be and don't be afraid to seek out help! not every fight can be won alone... I once again want to thank all the great people of CN! with of course some honorable mentions going to (In no particular order) :
@Beer — my man, my bro, there is not much to tell you that I already did not tell you in person but ,while you are a ragebaiter, you are still one of the kindest and most understanding people I met on this server. Thank you for all the support you gave me on MC&D and helping me realize what I actually need, hope you bring MC&D to glory and its true potential while im gone...
@Johnson J. Marauder — How long are we here again? Feel like we should have beards at this point (With yours being longer), honestly I am not sure how many deals and interactions I would even have with CI in general if not for you. If there is anyone deserving a status of a legend on CN it is you (but you probably already know that), always been a CI and I hope always will be a CI, God(Drug)speed to you and please focus less on your K/D.
@Bananolas — Ah, my chemical client number 1 and one of the main reasons why I became rich so I can pay for MC&D, at least back in the day, while there may have been some ups and downs between us I still can do nothing else but to wish you luck and prosperity.
@YandereMuffin — For me you are Blep and always will be. While our interactions were sometimes... weird.... to say the least I still cannot thank you enough for all the help you given me by either pac creation,event making or being a chad in general, I hope that you will not give up on MC&D...
@LuxPT — Not sure what happened to you but honestly, you were one of the most kind and jolly people on UK and I always could not help myself but to smile every time I spoke with you.
@Kayla — Oh boy, let me just say right now "this corporation would be nothing without you" and I think whole medical department too, wish we had some more interactions between us but my character could not take being kidnapped again for a whole month by A-1 for feeling nice and saving you from CI that time hah, also women are scary.
@Niox - Happy bir... Never mind, I can already hear you screaming all the way over there even though I was never in on the joke too much. Wish you as much patience with them peoples as possible.
@Vetkoek — You will always be the best butler MC&D ever had. Oh yeah and you were a chad chief too hah, its thanks to you that I have finally decided to move to a cl4 role and honestly, I don't regret anything.
@AstroHyena — While your "mhm" or "ok" sometimes infuriates the shit out of me, I still think you are very cool and there are good reasons for why you are where you are. Keep it strong!
@Charles "Ze" Whitmee — Don't worry, you will still see my MC&D character appearing like a ghost in random places so you can let out the biggest sigh ever, if not on CN then in your house hah, you are for sure in the top of most coolest people here, keep it cool!
@Dimitri 'Pixie' Yung — Do I even have to say anything? One of the nicest people you could talk with, even if hes talking to you as an interrogator cause you just broke FLC, keep it positive champ!
@Ronin — Cheesy is that you? Anyway, I don't think I can find words good enough to thank you for all you did for me and MC&D in general, some of the coolest ideas executed in a coolest way possible, my hopes are that you will be here for CN and that you will keep bringing them entertainment that they deserve.
@Frederick - Viva la France! Even though I sometimes could not understand you because of your perfect accent, I still think you are definitely on the list of the best people I could talk to and share my opinions with.
@Archangel - You will have to find someone ealse to argue with over the compound gate I'm afraid, but I think your nickname is spot on and deserved. If not Foundation, then Nu-7 should be grateful for having you.
@Zen - I don't think I have ever seen a more active person here, even if some of your ideas are denied, I still think you contributed A LOT to the people of this place, even if some of them don't recognize it, keep it creative!
@Buddy'Bud'B. (temporary) — "As long as we are here, GSD is going to be." I hope you the best and wish a lot of patience. Maybe one day they will get those shields changed. Until then GSD have you for their shield.
@Marrio Tazuul — If there is any GSD I can identify myself with the most, it will be you. Thanks for being understanding and kind, you will always have a special place in my heart.
@Raali - Kenraali is that you? Anyway, FINALLY AN SA LAUGHING AT MY JOKES WITHOUT SENDING ME TO THERAPY! Thank you for being here and breaking stereotypes. Keep at it champ!
@Snake — Made me lose my shit more than once, but still, nothing but respect and appreciation for all the work you are doing. I never congratulated you enough on climbing the ranks and I hope you keep doing soo, this place wouldn't be the same without you. Keep it SsSsssSstrong!
@Dennid - I still see you as that starting DEA coming here because of Germanpotato hah, While we never had many interactions I heard more than enough to thank you for the work you have been doing, and you did!
@Jack "Golden" Apple — My fellow CPT, I hope you will bring as much joy to Gensec as you did to me, and hold on strong there! D BLOCK WILL HOLD!
There is a lot of other people that I would like to mention that have unfortunately already left the community like Sven,Abraham and many others, but to honor their peace I won't be doing pings and such. thank you again.
(People I could not find the tags for or could not figure out which one it is but still deserve a mention - Pennington,Unethical,McTavish,Warmug,Mayer,Matt Morgan,Qidn,Welper,Dam Dam,Titan,Sanders,Achurm,Amy,Leviathan,Aki,Ella,Saint,Auburn,Neptune,William and MANY others)
My memory is not what its used to be, and I never really had a good head for names, being honest also having a hard time finding all of you here and I'm thinking I have already written long enough of a list, but you can be sure to include yourself here if you brought any positive experience for me and other players in this community that includes all the Mods,Devs,SAs,SCs,GOCs,CIs,MTFs etc and of course my favorite MC&Ds! Once again thank you all for providing one of the best SCP experiences you could get and I wish you all the best I can. I am honestly not sure for how long I will be gone. Maybe months, maybe years, maybe I will not return at all, or I will just come visit you once in a while to check how my favorite mental asylum is doing. All depends on how my recovery journey will go and how the "new Arion" will look after it, but I do hope I can return as a better and more stable version of myself if I even succeed.
Wish you all well! Arion out.
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