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Username: Zen
Your in-game name: See forums signature
Your SteamID: STEAM_0:1:94216966
Previous rank: Senior Moderator
Are you appealing a Staff resignation, demotion or blacklist: Blacklist
Date of blacklist: I do not believe I was ever told
Have you received any kicks/warns/bans, and if so, why: I have one warning from 14/03/2025 for FailRP for being too combative as a non-combative role.
Who blacklisted you from Staff: Superadmin World, and then (unanimously?) escalated to NL level
Why were you blacklisted from Staff: Over a period of time towards my previous blacklist appeal, I very often generalised different staff/SL teams and made disparaging remarks towards them due to some issues I'd had with various decisions. While I may stand by the actual criticism I had in some instances, a lot of the time I wasn't actually providing any useful criticism and was just being rude and insulting towards groups like Content Team or Server Leadership. It wasn't helpful, it clearly upset some people, and I just shouldn't have been acting that way and saying some of the things I said. While I was never overly aggressive or anything, I was consistently insulting and generally just rude towards a lot of staff over a long period of time, which was both hurtful and also gave the impression that I hated staff/the server/etc., which was never my intent - I had intended from the start to just give fair criticism, but over time I just got more and more frustrated with some issues and blew them out of proportion and just ended up being a dick on more than a few occasions.
Why should you return: Since I became aware that my behaviour had become an issue, I have worked to avoid that kind of attitude and behaviour and, to my knowledge, haven't acted in the sort of way that got me blacklisted since around the time of my previous appeal (over six months ago). I hadn't realised that I had hurt anyone prior to that and generally didn't realise how I was behaving towards others. While I will likely always be pretty blunt in how I communicate, my behaviour crossed the line from "blunt but fair/neutral/friendly" into toxicity towards staff, and I apologise for that, and will not repeat that in the future.
I would also like to clarify my general stance/attitude regarding the server, because I believe this sort of behaviour gave the wrong impression of my opinions: I do genuinely like the server and its community. It was never the case that I actually disliked any of that - my intention was always to provide criticism with the intent of having something I enjoy improve even more, which was why I joined the Content Team previously in the first place. My frustrations with some aspects of the server content and the like do not mean I don't like the server, they are just aspects that I think could be improved - I just allowed some frustrations to sour both my mood and behaviour in some areas to the point I was just being quite toxic, especially towards staff, and I apologise for that.
I do also wish to get back into helping the server more like I was trying to do before prior to leaving staff due to external commitments. I don't currently plan to immediately apply for staff or anything like that, because I am currently not far into starting a new job and want to settle into the swing of that before I try making any other commitments like staff time, but I do plan to eventually aim for a role like that. My current plan is that once I am more settled into the new job, I would like to apply for Addon Developer some time later on, though I also need to finish off at least one of my ongoing GLua personal projects for the application first. I'm mainly making this appeal to both hopefully remove it so that I can eventually apply/resignation appeal in my own time later on without needing to do both this and that at the same time, and to try and improve my relationship with SL+. NL especially clearly didn't take kindly to my previous behaviour, fairly, and I'd like to ideally try and rectify that given time.
Finally, and again, I'd like to apologise to anyone that I'd been toxic to previously. I hadn't realised the extent of my behaviour nor intended to be that way, but that doesn't excuse me just generally being a dick to people that were just volunteering their time to help the server and its community.
Your in-game name: See forums signature
Your SteamID: STEAM_0:1:94216966
Previous rank: Senior Moderator
Are you appealing a Staff resignation, demotion or blacklist: Blacklist
Date of blacklist: I do not believe I was ever told
Have you received any kicks/warns/bans, and if so, why: I have one warning from 14/03/2025 for FailRP for being too combative as a non-combative role.
Who blacklisted you from Staff: Superadmin World, and then (unanimously?) escalated to NL level
Why were you blacklisted from Staff: Over a period of time towards my previous blacklist appeal, I very often generalised different staff/SL teams and made disparaging remarks towards them due to some issues I'd had with various decisions. While I may stand by the actual criticism I had in some instances, a lot of the time I wasn't actually providing any useful criticism and was just being rude and insulting towards groups like Content Team or Server Leadership. It wasn't helpful, it clearly upset some people, and I just shouldn't have been acting that way and saying some of the things I said. While I was never overly aggressive or anything, I was consistently insulting and generally just rude towards a lot of staff over a long period of time, which was both hurtful and also gave the impression that I hated staff/the server/etc., which was never my intent - I had intended from the start to just give fair criticism, but over time I just got more and more frustrated with some issues and blew them out of proportion and just ended up being a dick on more than a few occasions.
Why should you return: Since I became aware that my behaviour had become an issue, I have worked to avoid that kind of attitude and behaviour and, to my knowledge, haven't acted in the sort of way that got me blacklisted since around the time of my previous appeal (over six months ago). I hadn't realised that I had hurt anyone prior to that and generally didn't realise how I was behaving towards others. While I will likely always be pretty blunt in how I communicate, my behaviour crossed the line from "blunt but fair/neutral/friendly" into toxicity towards staff, and I apologise for that, and will not repeat that in the future.
I would also like to clarify my general stance/attitude regarding the server, because I believe this sort of behaviour gave the wrong impression of my opinions: I do genuinely like the server and its community. It was never the case that I actually disliked any of that - my intention was always to provide criticism with the intent of having something I enjoy improve even more, which was why I joined the Content Team previously in the first place. My frustrations with some aspects of the server content and the like do not mean I don't like the server, they are just aspects that I think could be improved - I just allowed some frustrations to sour both my mood and behaviour in some areas to the point I was just being quite toxic, especially towards staff, and I apologise for that.
I do also wish to get back into helping the server more like I was trying to do before prior to leaving staff due to external commitments. I don't currently plan to immediately apply for staff or anything like that, because I am currently not far into starting a new job and want to settle into the swing of that before I try making any other commitments like staff time, but I do plan to eventually aim for a role like that. My current plan is that once I am more settled into the new job, I would like to apply for Addon Developer some time later on, though I also need to finish off at least one of my ongoing GLua personal projects for the application first. I'm mainly making this appeal to both hopefully remove it so that I can eventually apply/resignation appeal in my own time later on without needing to do both this and that at the same time, and to try and improve my relationship with SL+. NL especially clearly didn't take kindly to my previous behaviour, fairly, and I'd like to ideally try and rectify that given time.
Finally, and again, I'd like to apologise to anyone that I'd been toxic to previously. I hadn't realised the extent of my behaviour nor intended to be that way, but that doesn't excuse me just generally being a dick to people that were just volunteering their time to help the server and its community.