I love the community, I love the servers, and I love the people within them. Unfortunately, through the last months, I have lost all my motivation due to certain factors. I do not wish to blame anyone, since me losing motivation cannot really be blamed on a specific event or person, I just want to share the nebula of circumstances that have led me to make this very difficult decision. Generally, there are two spheres which I like to separate: GM and IC.
In the GM sphere, I rejoined the team almost immediately after I came back from a couple of months' break. I was eager and excited to start again, and so I did. I am no PAC3 master (and my potato processor can't really deal with much), nor do I know lore like it's the bible, but all of my events had thought, research, and care put behind them, and every event that I either hosted (90%) or participated in (10%) got 9s and 10s, as well as very positive feedback in-game.
Whenever the Admin in charge of the event team would ask me for help in any case, even if I was in the middle of writing documents as SD or in a roleplay situation, I would say yes without hesitating, and spend as many hours as necessary cooperating (trust me, it was a lot of hours doing extra unrecognized work that wasn't even helping towards my monthly minimums). I liked it, I enjoyed it, and I felt like I was being helpful to the community, even if it was extremely tiring. However, as time advanced, I came to realize that no matter what I did, all my hard work, even if it wasn't spectacular, was not recognized, and even the slightest mistakes I made were harshly dealt with, completely ignoring everything that I tried to do in the past to help beyond just hosting events. Under these conditions, how is one meant to stay motivated? My activity began to drop and, of course, I have now decided to quit. My official resignation is on the 21st of this month.
In the IC sphere, I applied for SA as soon as I saw an open position. After spending 6-7 months as DoIA, I felt like this was the natural step to make. When I joined, I had an extremely tight work schedule, but I did my absolute best to be as active as possible. On the worst days, I would wake up at 7 AM, go to work for five hours, then university, and would get home at 10 PM, shower, have dinner, and start playing at around 11 PM my time for a couple of hours, to then go to sleep and repeat the process the next day. I did it because I loved being a Site Advisor, it was fun, it allowed me to help the community, and it let me improve the overall RP situation on the server. Naturally, I eventually managed to become SD, which was amazing. I was having a blast in the position, and I was pushing for some real changes. However, I needed a LOA that was three weeks and two days long for a trip, and sadly it was deemed too long for an SD, so I was forced to step down from the position, therefore losing pretty much the last motivation I had to stay in the server.
Some of you may find these reasons to be dumb, which would be understandable. Sadly, I cannot choose what motivates me and what demotivates me, and right now I truly do not feel like playing in Civil Networks anymore. I wholeheartedly hope that one day I'll find the will to play again since this is the community I love and I feel a part of. I love you all, from the staff to the GM team, from CI to GOC, from DEA to Research. Best of luck, and hopefully see you soon.
In the GM sphere, I rejoined the team almost immediately after I came back from a couple of months' break. I was eager and excited to start again, and so I did. I am no PAC3 master (and my potato processor can't really deal with much), nor do I know lore like it's the bible, but all of my events had thought, research, and care put behind them, and every event that I either hosted (90%) or participated in (10%) got 9s and 10s, as well as very positive feedback in-game.
Whenever the Admin in charge of the event team would ask me for help in any case, even if I was in the middle of writing documents as SD or in a roleplay situation, I would say yes without hesitating, and spend as many hours as necessary cooperating (trust me, it was a lot of hours doing extra unrecognized work that wasn't even helping towards my monthly minimums). I liked it, I enjoyed it, and I felt like I was being helpful to the community, even if it was extremely tiring. However, as time advanced, I came to realize that no matter what I did, all my hard work, even if it wasn't spectacular, was not recognized, and even the slightest mistakes I made were harshly dealt with, completely ignoring everything that I tried to do in the past to help beyond just hosting events. Under these conditions, how is one meant to stay motivated? My activity began to drop and, of course, I have now decided to quit. My official resignation is on the 21st of this month.
In the IC sphere, I applied for SA as soon as I saw an open position. After spending 6-7 months as DoIA, I felt like this was the natural step to make. When I joined, I had an extremely tight work schedule, but I did my absolute best to be as active as possible. On the worst days, I would wake up at 7 AM, go to work for five hours, then university, and would get home at 10 PM, shower, have dinner, and start playing at around 11 PM my time for a couple of hours, to then go to sleep and repeat the process the next day. I did it because I loved being a Site Advisor, it was fun, it allowed me to help the community, and it let me improve the overall RP situation on the server. Naturally, I eventually managed to become SD, which was amazing. I was having a blast in the position, and I was pushing for some real changes. However, I needed a LOA that was three weeks and two days long for a trip, and sadly it was deemed too long for an SD, so I was forced to step down from the position, therefore losing pretty much the last motivation I had to stay in the server.
Some of you may find these reasons to be dumb, which would be understandable. Sadly, I cannot choose what motivates me and what demotivates me, and right now I truly do not feel like playing in Civil Networks anymore. I wholeheartedly hope that one day I'll find the will to play again since this is the community I love and I feel a part of. I love you all, from the staff to the GM team, from CI to GOC, from DEA to Research. Best of luck, and hopefully see you soon.
@Yeke - The first buddy I made on the server, probably the best times I ever spent in the community were with you. Best of luck mate.
@Big Mike - OG Ambassador, a very cool person too.
@ionboy64 , @Naffen , @Scotsman , @Serrt , @RedBubble55 , and @Jack Kincaid - I will never get tired of thanking you guys for everything you did to jointly rebuild SA as a team. (P.S. Cade Vale is one hell of a goofy name, Serrt. Learn to crop images, Connor).
@John Dear - You're an amazing DoIA, please do keep it up, you're the best and I hope that whatever your objectives within the server are, you fulfil them.
@chad4j - Canaria de corazón, leyenda de la tierra de los volcanes.
@Bush von Mann - "Para hacer una ensalada de fruta necesitamos..." You're the best mate.
@Simon "Kitton" A. - I don't know if I can live without getting my daily dose of Hungarian propaganda you keep sending me.
@Reco - Knight of the DarkRP, Mayor of the city. Best of luck to you and I hope DarkRP opens soon so you can become its boss once again.
@Cheddar - My favourite Albanian, one of the best people in the community without a doubt.
@Broda Kagen - You and I go a long way back, I wish you the best of luck in your endeavours mate.
@Nukegoboom - We've had a fair share of funny moments through the last year and a half, best of luck.
@'Moshi' Danin Brooks - Burek sa Sirom Croatian, stepper of the landmines. Unfortunately for you, I will keep harassing you on Discord.
@Igorski - I don't even know if he will read this, but I could not leave without at least trying to say bye to Igorski.
@Skittles - Panteri, panteri, vi ste hrabri momci, najhrabriji naši, srpski dobrovoljci!
@Karol 'Negotiator' W. - It's a shame that I have to leave, I just found out you joined A-1!
@Julien White - Another legend that I think is gone, but deserves my warmest goodbyes.
@Moon - Best Flamingo ever. Try not to get banned this time around (come think of it, I think you're still banned).
@RedMann - Ed Sheeran, I am glad you got your COM, extremely well deserved.
@Toddy - Cataluña es España.
@Toni - Portugal es España.
@Otters - Certified Dollar Store Mr Beast, best of luck, you're the best.
@ThatOneSaltyGerman - Make this man SGM already, for the love of God.
@MrSiens - Called me Department Director of Morons once, but I forgive you because you're great.
@Anthony "Pilot" - Best Commander that O-1 could wish for. Best of luck to you, keep up the amazing work.
@Shadow - Not my fault if you're Romanian.
@Daniel Hammer - Such bald. Very bald.
@Aedius (Gregory McCain) - One of the best ambassadors I could count on in IA, also helped end racism in the IA external Discord back in the day. Too bad he's a Walloon.
@Archaon @Thorgrim - When is the wedding? Thank you for letting me become an ambassador back in the day.
@Shino Aeschylion - Unironically one of the most capable people in the history of GSD and CI.
@Shane "E.G.G.M" Bacon - Te echaré de menos, peruano peruano peruano peruano peruano peruano.
@claire - Can't even mention you because you're an idiot and you're banned.
@Jericho - Please stay civil, otherwise you will be sent to the reeducation camp.
@Demi - Mohammed Demi, epic IA Agent who never ran for ambassador.
There's a big chance I forgot some of the most important people, for which I do apologize. It's hard to keep track of everyone I've shared good moments with in such a long period of time.
Hope to be back soon!
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