Staff shot was fun, but given the state I was demoted in (1 week suspension, call this my resignation) I am sure as hell not going back to staff. I loved the experience, but I don't think my personality is gonna let me. I'm too loud-mouthed, too much of a dumb fuck. I do know there are some people out there much better cut out for the job. And, if ya need me when I come back, I'll be happy to do some VOD time.
I'll stay active in CCSF sections, discord, but I need to take a break. Just wanna let time heal any wounds I inflicted on certain people. That toxic side of me, may never die but I don't feel like suppressing it anymore. I wanna look into the mirror, step into it, and be one person. So, no matter what, let us forget all the bad shit, and cherish what happened. Because no matter what - memories can't be taken. Even in death, we still have them.
Finally - I wanna let people know what happened. Why? Some people want the whole story, and I don't want another GreenJoe or Fatal Titan situation where nobody knows what happened. It was a string of usual shit - cursing in OOC as AOD, crass jokes, and it culminated with an advert saying I was going to rape someone. Typing this out hurt a bit, but need to take a band-aid off a cut for it to heal. The big boys gave me a suspension for one week, and I figured I might as well make it permanent. It's just who I am, I can't let it go. I'm repeating myself.
Anyways - no way mean't to make this sour. The blame for the demotion/resignation is on me, and no one else. I love you guys, and will stay around. But for now, it's time to close the chapter. I look forward to the next one.
"Take a gamble that love exists, and do a loving act."
I'll stay active in CCSF sections, discord, but I need to take a break. Just wanna let time heal any wounds I inflicted on certain people. That toxic side of me, may never die but I don't feel like suppressing it anymore. I wanna look into the mirror, step into it, and be one person. So, no matter what, let us forget all the bad shit, and cherish what happened. Because no matter what - memories can't be taken. Even in death, we still have them.
Finally - I wanna let people know what happened. Why? Some people want the whole story, and I don't want another GreenJoe or Fatal Titan situation where nobody knows what happened. It was a string of usual shit - cursing in OOC as AOD, crass jokes, and it culminated with an advert saying I was going to rape someone. Typing this out hurt a bit, but need to take a band-aid off a cut for it to heal. The big boys gave me a suspension for one week, and I figured I might as well make it permanent. It's just who I am, I can't let it go. I'm repeating myself.
Anyways - no way mean't to make this sour. The blame for the demotion/resignation is on me, and no one else. I love you guys, and will stay around. But for now, it's time to close the chapter. I look forward to the next one.
"Take a gamble that love exists, and do a loving act."
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