I wasn't originally going to make a leaving post but some of you act like I'm dying so uhhhh.... lets talk about why I needed a break.
1. Bro, fuck ISD. (And by extension some server rules and their grey areas.)
I need to admit my fuck ups. I coulda done better talking to actual mods and shit. Due to the abuse of grey areas ISD had been battering down RsD's door every chance they got. Attempting to cut RCPT out of sampling, shutting down RCPT, blatant targeting of certain individuals, and really making it hard to have fun by becoming nothing but beat cops and lackies for a dude who dresses like a fuckin commie. I liked the vampire though. Sad to see that one go. Who else will now chase women on all fours while making goblin noises? Preem RP right there. No, this isn't sarcasm. I fuckin loved that shit. Got someone to kill him once for it. Hope he comes back and does the whole 'evil ISD' thing again. This time without the commie and without CL3 ISD being able to arrest anyone with zero questions asked.
2. RCPT
I don't like RCPT. Never did. However, I am not the only motherfucker on this server so I understand that what I consider fun and engaging others may not and vice versa. Some people clearly don't understand that and I am so weary on boxing multiple people over a fucking subreg. They make less chemicals that GOC with far lower profit margins than CI yet they get decimated by ISD from multiple fronts, shit talked and called 'parasitic', multiple attempts at dissolving it from different corners of site, and all because of this vague notion that they 'make too much money' or they're 'for profit'. Sounds like broke bitch talk. Ong, any of you want to sample? Think their prices are 'too high'? Write a basic ass doc and just tell us you're making fuckin chems. Then sell 'em lower. No one is going to stop you. RCPT primarily attempts to get chems around site and provide bounties for RCPT members to engage in to promote a little activity. Interacting with them is a choice, not an obligation.
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So after all that I did not have the energy I normally did for my DoR role. I'm sure you all noticed my extreme autism and (frankly unhealthy) hyper fixation on the Research Department. Edited a majority of the external documents, created brand new templates, redecorated the whole of RsD, made spots for subregs, held weekly meetings (that were always shitposts but we got ish done), made like ten different decals for RsD, got a majority of the new SCPs in inanimate designated and grave credits to the RsD that designated them and a buncha other shit I'm probably forgetting. In short, went too hard, shit got more stressful than fun, and I burned out. I've also got some lingering resentment for individuals and I feel this bias and spitefulness taints both my ability to be a GM and a DoR. So I'm gunna do a smart thing and but the videogame down for half a year. If people are still alive they'll see me in the summer. Before I fuck off though I do wanna talk about specific dweebs that encouraged my autism (made the server bearable).
NioxThe Diver is a preem villian/antagonist and I adored how much WORSE he made Claire. Slowly turning her into the absolute worst version of herself by sacrificing people, scaring important people like Fenriz (yes, OwlEyes DID sicc an SCP on you after you sassed her), and offering her shit like the ability to be revived at death (with some consequences). I don't think I would've anted anyone else to mentor me as a TGM, and when I come back and re-apply I hope I get set up with you again.
Khori (Finn)It is CRIMINAL I didn't get to interact with your character more as Claire. They'd be such disgusting little freaks together and were absolutely on that path to being the most morally dubious Directors on site. I know when dealing with this bitch both in and out of character it'd be a little weird, but not stressful. Something that is so insanely valuable when you wanna have fun in RP. Enjoy this screenshot from our DMs. No context.
Mia MheebFunniest shit this man has ever done; save my character's life by knifing CI to death as a Senior Doctor. This started a whole thing where Mia was Claire's go-to doctor and got him rolled into silly things like the taming of a young 939, which he was amnesticated about, then that caused medical to raid HCZ... it was a whole thing! But a whole thing that created a strange and lasting friendship between characters. Maybe Claire will get to ruffle his hair again when she respawns back on default settings during the summer.
I'mma cut my yap short there. There's like five+ other people I could mention and I probably misspelled names, but it is long past time for me to close these tabs and dip outta discord servers. I'mma do that now. See ya'll in six months.
1. Bro, fuck ISD. (And by extension some server rules and their grey areas.)
I need to admit my fuck ups. I coulda done better talking to actual mods and shit. Due to the abuse of grey areas ISD had been battering down RsD's door every chance they got. Attempting to cut RCPT out of sampling, shutting down RCPT, blatant targeting of certain individuals, and really making it hard to have fun by becoming nothing but beat cops and lackies for a dude who dresses like a fuckin commie. I liked the vampire though. Sad to see that one go. Who else will now chase women on all fours while making goblin noises? Preem RP right there. No, this isn't sarcasm. I fuckin loved that shit. Got someone to kill him once for it. Hope he comes back and does the whole 'evil ISD' thing again. This time without the commie and without CL3 ISD being able to arrest anyone with zero questions asked.
2. RCPT
I don't like RCPT. Never did. However, I am not the only motherfucker on this server so I understand that what I consider fun and engaging others may not and vice versa. Some people clearly don't understand that and I am so weary on boxing multiple people over a fucking subreg. They make less chemicals that GOC with far lower profit margins than CI yet they get decimated by ISD from multiple fronts, shit talked and called 'parasitic', multiple attempts at dissolving it from different corners of site, and all because of this vague notion that they 'make too much money' or they're 'for profit'. Sounds like broke bitch talk. Ong, any of you want to sample? Think their prices are 'too high'? Write a basic ass doc and just tell us you're making fuckin chems. Then sell 'em lower. No one is going to stop you. RCPT primarily attempts to get chems around site and provide bounties for RCPT members to engage in to promote a little activity. Interacting with them is a choice, not an obligation.
3. The death (removal from GM) of Hooton Benten
I'm just petty. After talking with people in charge I can't blame them for removing him. Broski did not log his events. Sadly, Houston is kinda the guy that built up my DoR character through his events. The radio event, the closet event, L3 event, all those were Houston events. Ong, if anyone can pull off reviving L3 from it's grave, it's Shrimp. She's gunna be down a few major players though. With the ISD bullshit and the RCPT bullshit I was slowly getting more and more tired, and then the guy that built up my character gets kicked off the team and the event is tossed into a limbo as it's getting re-assigned to a new GM. That shit took the last of the wind out of sails. I grew bitter, petty and honestly sad as shit.
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So after all that I did not have the energy I normally did for my DoR role. I'm sure you all noticed my extreme autism and (frankly unhealthy) hyper fixation on the Research Department. Edited a majority of the external documents, created brand new templates, redecorated the whole of RsD, made spots for subregs, held weekly meetings (that were always shitposts but we got ish done), made like ten different decals for RsD, got a majority of the new SCPs in inanimate designated and grave credits to the RsD that designated them and a buncha other shit I'm probably forgetting. In short, went too hard, shit got more stressful than fun, and I burned out. I've also got some lingering resentment for individuals and I feel this bias and spitefulness taints both my ability to be a GM and a DoR. So I'm gunna do a smart thing and but the videogame down for half a year. If people are still alive they'll see me in the summer. Before I fuck off though I do wanna talk about specific dweebs that encouraged my autism (made the server bearable).
-1/-7 (Serrt)
If this person ever leaves the server it's over. The amount of carrying she does for the server is unparallel and she deserves a fuckin salary for it. Half the time this lady was my ear to the ground on what was actually happening and if she felt something was wrong she actually did shit about it. Which is more than I can say for most people, including myself. That ain't even talking about how much fun it is to RP with her -1/-7. Shoutout to that one time someone prank called -3's office while we were using it for a talk and -1 said he'd send a drone strike to their location.-3/Theta (Synergy)
The most influential GM for my time on the server outside of Hooton. A lot of their events had me hooked, mostly because of how Syn interacted with others. Stuff like Claire and Scott getting together to help Theta when Theta was first appearing, Claire eyeing up -3 from down the hall (A1 only caught her ass once), that weird fucking G.O.C. from a different timeline that eats people and a bunch of other shit. Absolutely addicting events to be part of and I adored the late night fuckery.Niox
Khori (Finn)
Mia Mheeb
Kenralli
100% precious little thing in my characters eyes. This man was to be protected at ALL COSTS. It broke my heart to hear he got amnesticated and his first thing to ask Jaffar is 'where Claire'? Like bro you can't fucking dO THAT TO ME MAN THAT'S SO FUCKING SWEET I'M CRYING. I hope he's still looking for a researcher to help him with his fifty million issues in the future.Ehrendil
Actually best DoI. Once he left ISD fell hard. Not to mention, homeboy is only reason Claire was able to fuck off to GOC safely. Absolute goat and if he's not ECC by the time I'm back something is terribly wrong and I'm personally going to somehow riot within Ethics. Don't know how, but I'll find a way.Alex/Scott
Putting these two chucklefucks together because I want them to work together. I think they have a lot of growing to do but they are the only ones imo that can be DoRs right now. If any slimy plant tries to snipe DoR without being an exec first I'm carpet bombing CS. While I enjoy the rest of the execs (I love all my little dudes) I will show my bias on who should get the spot. Both of them have made fun RP and have proven they can think critically on how to solve problems and uplift research.-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
I'mma cut my yap short there. There's like five+ other people I could mention and I probably misspelled names, but it is long past time for me to close these tabs and dip outta discord servers. I'mma do that now. See ya'll in six months.
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, and a fact, after the amnestication it didn't take long for me To learn the problems all over again!