I have to say your reputation was definitely effected when you mass applied for roles on US/UK,
I'd like you to expand on 'mass applying' here please - My understanding of this implication is that this is referring to the time when I had both the UK Exec app & US CPT app simultaneously. I understand the cause for concern, but whether you intend it or not, the idea of mass applying carries the implication that I was firing off apps for roles left and right and not... Just two apps at the same time.
it makes it hard to tell if you genuinely mean it when you're applying for a role.
Well, the community seems to have formed a nasty habit of telling people their own intentions and feelings on the matter as opposed to just politely asking - And then being surprised when responded to with hostility.
All this making-a-new-application-ing and complaining-in-replies when you could also realise you don't take anything seriously enough to be a good fit for a cl4 position.
You
have to be trolling at this point. I'll entertain it just to sink the captain alongside the ship, but since you insist on this line of reasoning, could you actually elaborate on me "not taking anything seriously," please?
When you consistently get denied (or subforum BLed) you should stop and consider that you might be in the wrong.
I can't reach a conclusion when there's no variables to work with.
Back when I originally applied for OSA in 2024, I was doing all the same things that I've been doing now, but less so because I had a CL4 position in E-11 CPT that I wanted to properly play, was active and acted as expected on that role and was tending to those obligations. That's it. And back then, I got the role of OSA without any of the trouble I appear to be having now, and continued while juggling both roles. This can only lead me to believe that obtaining a position without struggle requires another position in the first place, which is extremely circular.
I otherwise have no info to work with other than "I'm not active enough."
Instead, you have developed some sort of Garry's Mod induced victim complex, as is clear from your messages in mess-hall the day after you got denied for UK Exec and US CPT (see attached image).
This is lwk true from what ive been reading
Gee, I wonder what could possibly cause that? Everything you're saying here so far goes both ways. "Caaarl, that kills people!" I refuse to believe you have zero idea of what you're doing here.
When I said you hadn't played a second on Researcher, you replied: This is patently false.
Which is odd considering you yourself said you hadn't done diddly squat on Research when you applied for Executive. See attached.
I don't see the point of bring up a year old Sa application of a different person and then shaming us for giving our opinions on the applicant, as stated in my point this reply literally proves my point and is very disappointing behaviour.
The fact that you don't even understand that the behaviour being displayed here is extremely alike what happened there even after being directly told and shown, is even
more telling. If you seriously think this is just you 'giving your opinion,' then I can only rest my case on this. I hope you can someday understand what exactly is occurring here.
You've spoken quite a lot about responsibility, however you've also made a number of GM requests that are intentionally unrealistic or disruptive. One example that stands out is you requesting a Davy Crockett, which is something an experienced player such as yourself would know has zero chance of being approved.
My main concern isn't really about it being denied, it's moreso why it was made in the first place. Holding a CL4 role should demonstrate that you have a reasonable sense of maturity and judgement, so why would you engage in creating tickets that will lead to other players associating you with the opposite of this? Not only is it hurting your chances of having future applications accepted, but also demonstrating that you lack maturity.
So the fact that I have held CL4 positions in the past and have performed well on them just goes away because you associate me with other things I decide to do? That's not how that works. If I have made it clear that I intend on bringing the same approach and ethic I did before to the same role again, you can't then raise the thing I have specifically excluded and say "Yeah, but this says otherwise." That's wilful ignorance that the point.
You also recently had a Site Advisor application denied, and applying for another CL4 role makes it seem as if you're effectively 'shotgunning' for any role that will take you.
Additionally, on your previous Site Advisor Application you stated:
Following another year's worth of thought, soul-searching and more allowance for the accumulated burnout to recede, I would continue to seek a Site Advisor position
However, on 16/05/2026 you also stated:
I quit trying to get anywhere last year and decided to take up casual mingery. It's improved my mood a lot. From time to time, I take a few moments to challenge all this and pick a fight with literally everyone
Reconciling these two statements are impossible. One one hand, you're presenting yourself as someone who has spent a significant amount of time reflecting and preparing for leadership positions. On the other hand, you're openly showing behaviour that juxtaposes this. Whether your previous statement was a joke or not, it still raises questions about your maturity and behaviour.
Since you either don't or otherwise refuse to understand the meaning of what I said in the second quote, I will elaborate:
If I can't progress in the server, then there is no point in trying to do so and instead opting to minge as a better, more stress-free and relaxing use of my time and energy on what's supposed to be a fun place. Occasionally, I will make attempts to challenge this approach and actually attempt to get a role again, with the intent of disproving myself and seeing if, after attempting to get somewhere and failing, if I can try again. Continued exclusion and hostility from the community vindicates my rationale, while progress would represent an opportunity for me to do literally anything else.
So far in the past year of my attempts, the only progress I've made is in CI. CI are wonderful. But if you can't see the open toxicity on display here, then you are part of the problem.
This, trying to obtain a role I held before, is one of my
last resorts. It doesn't mean I don't want the role, it means this is me retreating and trying to progress with territory I am familiar with. The fact that I am being met with the most resistance that I have been thus far says something, but I'm not entirely sure what, because despite everything, I am still trying to earnestly glean something charitable from your approach here, but I am failing, because I can only presume that with this outwardly dishonest attempt to preclude me from going anywhere in the server, that I am not wanted here.
I don't know what experience you've had with this, but trying to break someone down doesn't always scare them straight. In some cases, and here especially, it invokes further conflict. People are not a one-size-fits-all problem and the fact that the dogpiling with zero self-awareness is continuing should really clue you in on that, but if being told directly won't convince you, I'm fairly certain nothing will. What's the point in trying to answer your questions or dispute your concerns if you've already made up the answer about me and my own intentions in your head, anyway?
If you want me to change my opinion on some things, you're certainly doing a good job. Just be mindful of how your approach inspires what change(s).
Hey, so what I've seen from you is that you take things very personally and bring OOC things IC.
????? What cause do you have to believe this?
Also, looking at your application and your responses on some of these things makes me believe you're not a good fit and will report anyone who has a negative opinion of you.
Understandable - Few people are able to see past duplicity and will fall directly for any presented character assassination. It's why it works so well.
Whatever, fuck it. Just deny the app already, or at least lock the thread until review, because this is clearly going nowhere other than down. I've said my piece. Whatever you choose to believe is up to you. I can only restate that I will bring my utmost best effort to the role OSA once more and integrate within the existing environment. If you genuinely believe that anything people have said here has any bearing on that, then I clearly can't convince you otherwise. I apologise for what I've said here. All I'm asking for is a chance to prove them wrong, and in the unlikely event something
does happen, you can say 'I told you so.' I personally don't mind continuing to fight over it, but it's ultimately pointless if we can't change each other's minds.
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